Monday, October 8, 2012

Competing Forces of Desire and Reality

It's never easy to face the reality of something we don't want to believe.  Why? Because it hurts.  It's that simple - it hurts.  Sometimes it hurts for awhile, and sometimes it hurts for a lifetime.  As I near the final chapters of Pages in the Wind, Emily is faced with an ugly reality as she graduates from high school and plans to leave her past behind for a new life in a new place.  She is hopelessly conflicted, and the conflict lies between her desire and her reality:

Step by step, I just kept walking in the direction of the cafeteria.  I knew that my thoughts were jumbled, remnants of this and remnants of that - thoughts strung together like some haphazard quilt.   Desire and reality were competing for my attention.  My desire was to stay here, to live out the fantasy of belonging to a happy family but reality was also here - walking in the direction of the cafeteria.  I knew that I just needed to keep walking without stopping - just keep putting one foot in front of the other in the direction of Robert and his plan to leave.  I knew that if I stopped walking, I would run in the other direction.  I would run in the direction of my desire, and the ugly truth is that my desire was nothing more than a made-up fantasy that would never, ever happen.  

Her choice will ultimately change the course of her life.  The competing power of desire and reality end up colliding - and what happens will be a turning point in her life and one that she could not have anticipated.


  1. I love your writing and can totally relate to the whole conflict between reality and desire. Sometimes desire is just too hard to resist or maybe reality is too awful to face. Your book sounds incredibly interesting, I can't wait till your done. It sounds like my kind of book. Anyway, love your blog and I sure enjoyed your post. It gave me a lot to think about. I'm now following you!

  2. I'm a follower of your blog. Your posts are interesting, and I really love your writing. This book is going to be a sure-read in my life! I feel like this particular post was meant for me, I do this all the time. It's so easy to not want to face the truth, reality can be a crap load of heartache. I'm glad Emily is facing it and can't help wonder what she'll do! I guess I'll have to wait for the book! Awesome blog!!!!!

  3. David Jason BransonOctober 15, 2012 at 8:34 AM

    What a beautiful blog, I love the layout and the art - most of all your heartfelt words. You really make me feel it, I've been reading your posts for a while now. This book your writing sounds interesting. I relate to your subject matter and your take on things. As to this post, nothing is more powerful than the choice between desire and reality. If they could both be the same, we wouldn't have the dilemma for sure. Anyway, stopping by to tell you I'm a big fan.

  4. Love your blog and this article. I've added a link to my blog. Great writing and interring characters.


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